i dont hate christmas
i thought about it, i dont hate christmas, its summat nice to look forward to each year, i am apprehensive about this christmas i will admit but i am looking forward to it, im looking forward to being able to see gemma on christmas day and on new years eve and im looking forward to welcoming in the new year too. i really dont know what id of done without gemma lately, well ever actually, she has been a real strength to me both in the past and recently too, she means so much to me and has since we first met. i cant believe its our second christmas together already the time has just gone so fast and yes i still love her with all my heart, i miss her so much when we are apart and i still hate saying goodbye to her.
the carnival made a few quid but not as much as last year, fishing has started a new season of comps although we only get one in before new years lol, i didnt do badly, i caught 3 fish within the first hour and a half and managed another 2 before the end of the comp, i had a few others but they werent sizable so they went back.
well thats all for this year, to anyone who is looking at this i bid you a happy christmas, a happy new year and probably farewell, as no doubt anyone has noticed (if anyone reads this) ive been updating less and less frequently, partly because i havnt found the time, partly because im not online as often as i was when i started this but mostly because i dont feel a need to anymore, when i started this it was as a means of getting my emotions and feelings out instead of bottling them up and whilst i still do bottle them up i dont do it as much and i dont have as many upsetting feelings anymore, im not saying im not gonna keep a journal any more, just not online and public, the journal in a book will be just for me and possibly gemma to read. i guess one of the main reasons is dad used to read this from time to time as a way of finding out what was going on in my life. i hope everyone has a good christmas and a good new year and most important of all, keeps smiling! dont let the bastards grind you down as they only win, keep smiling and it pisses them off without you doing anything but most importantly of all a smile is infectious, if someone sees your smile and it makes them smile, someone who then sees them smile might smile and before you know it your one little smile has travelled around the world and started an eppidemic!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!
ben
the carnival made a few quid but not as much as last year, fishing has started a new season of comps although we only get one in before new years lol, i didnt do badly, i caught 3 fish within the first hour and a half and managed another 2 before the end of the comp, i had a few others but they werent sizable so they went back.
well thats all for this year, to anyone who is looking at this i bid you a happy christmas, a happy new year and probably farewell, as no doubt anyone has noticed (if anyone reads this) ive been updating less and less frequently, partly because i havnt found the time, partly because im not online as often as i was when i started this but mostly because i dont feel a need to anymore, when i started this it was as a means of getting my emotions and feelings out instead of bottling them up and whilst i still do bottle them up i dont do it as much and i dont have as many upsetting feelings anymore, im not saying im not gonna keep a journal any more, just not online and public, the journal in a book will be just for me and possibly gemma to read. i guess one of the main reasons is dad used to read this from time to time as a way of finding out what was going on in my life. i hope everyone has a good christmas and a good new year and most important of all, keeps smiling! dont let the bastards grind you down as they only win, keep smiling and it pisses them off without you doing anything but most importantly of all a smile is infectious, if someone sees your smile and it makes them smile, someone who then sees them smile might smile and before you know it your one little smile has travelled around the world and started an eppidemic!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!
ben
